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Mother

I ran away to start my life anew…..
Without you,
I have always been naughty, haven’t I?
You said I was different; I have always been…..
When I thrashed the piano
You told uncle that I was practicing too hard.
When I killed the neighbour’s cat,
You told them to pardon my ignorance.
When I played truant,
You told my teacher that I fell sick
When I got caught for stealing,
You took the blame,
You threw my drawing assignments,
And yet they failed to score,
How useless can you be?
You pointed to the stars and proclaimed,
That I was one in a million,
Shinning brightly on its own,
Remember the time I failed my test,
You told me Einstein failed a hundred times,
When I was defeated in the SEAS GAMES,
You assured me that Einstein failed a thousands time too.
Who are you kidding?
Remember the sweater you sew?
I gave it to the Salvation Army
When you made burgers for me,
I complained that McDonald’s tasted better.
You forced me to take breakfasts
I hated that
When you fetched me from school
I lied to my friends that you were my maid
You celebrated my birthday every year
But I could never forget how shabbily dressed you were
During my graduation ceremony
You do not resent my life
But I hated living with you.
You said, “This is my home”
To me, a home should be a three-storey house
You greeted me every morning,
I won’t even say a word of good-bye
You toiled to make ends meet.
You are satisfied with simple life.
You encourage me to attend church
I reviled in orgy parties
You claimed that you need me.
What I need are my friends
I mean the world to you
You are only ounce to me.
You said you are my mother.
I said you are a disgrace.
You said you care,
I said get lost.
You slapped me,
I kicked you.
You believe in God,
I blamed you.
You said we flesh and blood,
I think I was adopted.
You gave me chance,
I took my chance,
You kept your sorrows to yourself,
I threw my anger to you.
You love,
I lust.
I gave me your love,
I offered my body to others.
You brought me up,
I brought you shame.
You have the courage to cry,
I don’t
The world I know is different from your.
A cigarette gives me three-minutes of joy,
Sex gives me thirty minutes of pleasure.
And drugs gives me eight hours of fun.
Like what you have always said,
I am different from the other boys.
Don’t you know the truth?
Or are you in denial?
You can’t change the mistake you made.
Of course I can’t use that to justify my own misdeeds.
Will you still be there for me?
Ten years away from you,
My life hasn’t been easy
I have seen demons of all realms
I am no longer your little child.
I am busy man
I don’t have much time to spare.
I did not bring any gift
I don’t care how you feel towards me now,
Be it a hug, or a cup of coffee,
That is all I am asking for….
I observe our house
Your taste has improved.
I watched the tree we planted,
It has grown much healthier than I had.
I saw my uncle,
I saw my sister,
I saw my Aunt,
I saw the old neighbours.
I have seen all I needed to see
But I did not see you, Mum.


Done By: Goh Shanna (shannonhikaro)